Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Induction Date!

Today I had another doctors appointment. I found out I lost 2 lbs, I am now 169 lbs!
I also now have a scheduled induction date! I will be induced on Tuesday, April 30th at 10:00 AM! Let's see if I can lose some more weight before then.(;
I'm VERY nervous to push a baby out of my vagina though. ._.
Apparently, the size of my belly is only measuring 35 weeks, meanwhile my due date is tomorrow. So, all in all, pretty good news. :3

3 comments:

  1. i cant believe that you're PREGNANT and still putting your body through this. please seriously talk to your doctor and turn this into a positive RECOVERY blog, rather than one that promotes eating disorders

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  2. I am so glad that you're giving your baby up for adoption to someone who won't be obsessed with weight loss. My God, you haven't even had him yet and you're obsessing about how much more weight you can lose before he's born! HELLO! ISSUES!!

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  3. you don't get the mental trauma , at all . When i look back into memories of when i was 17 -21 , there just aren't any there, i get memory surges which are overwhelming at any time because all my brain was doing was functioning into a regimented routine of starvation.
    To be a victim of rape t a young age and not be able to control or cope , to finding out you are pregnant and you body will be forced to do something you are not ready for but cant control or cope with , its traumatising , so the poor girl has turned to something she can "control" her eating. except the mind takes over and you feel trapped , you push everyone way and alienate yourself , you see a part of yourself you don't want to see , its like being dragged to hell and prepared to jump into the abyss because your body is already there and shut down. And then you experience a brightness , an all over warm glow like nothing else matters and you are only going through the motions , on another plane almost and recovery is just dragging you back through all the shit you just crawled through to accomplishment. So , she can give the baby up , but she cant turn back time , she has no control over herself or the situation she is in. .

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